incidental ramblings

Haven’t been blogging for about a month due to intensive mugging for my final examinations. *yeah right, who am I kidding* Well, I was pretty much slacking around while the rest of my peers were studying.. But I didn’t blog cause I felt too guilty to be slacking, yet I was too unmotivated to study. I hope that I didn’t screw up my exams too badly.. Well, my goal of getting into SMU seems pretty much impossible, seeing that the lowest admitted student had a GPA of 3.8…

Well apart from my mundane academic life, much has happen during this month.. But I haven’t got the mood to write about it.. So I guess this will be a really short post..

Until next time!

everyone else is mugging and revising for the final examinations and I’m probably the only one not.. Really lagging behind in Investment and Credit Management, and there’s still this really annoying CFAS project that is killing.. It’s kind of irritating to me when a project mate doesn’t contribute much to the project and just mugs away.. It also irritates me when some complain that they haven’t been able to revise cause of projects.. Not targetting anyone in particular, just a general feeling..

Well apart from the less important, the market this year seems pretty interesting to me.. Was expecting the market to be generally bearish, but so far, it has proved otherwise.. But of course, we are only 1 month into 2012..

My portfolio was finally green after months of red.. But I’m still uncertain of whether I should close my position with the recent rallies across the markets. Hopefully I’m able to make a right decision.. If not I hope that it would not be an expensive lesson..

So much to do in this short period of time.. I really need better management of my time.. Discipline to stick to my goals, and determination to peservere through..

Haven’t had the time to write up a proper blog post till now.. The past week had been really hectic with project submissions after submissions.. It was a nightmare staying up till the wee hours trying to piece everything together. I’m so glad that is all over now.

Had a long weekend thanks to CNY, which was much needed as I haven’t been able to get enough sleep since the start of the year. It sucks when you are extremely beat, but can’t get to sleep. I probably need to see a doctor concerning my sleep..

CNY as expected, was just another usual day for me.. Had a steamboat reunion with just my parents and eldest brother. I wouldn’t call it a reunion, considering that my other brother is overseas and my grandma isn’t with us. It feels as if my family is drifting apart slowly; the dinner was awkwardly quiet, my brother was busy smsing, and I was just eating quietly.

Visited my maternal grandma after our dinner where we skyped my brother in UK. This year, the visit to my grandma house was extremely boring.. Not everyone was there, only a few of my relatives were there. Didn’t play any games or whatsoever; just watched a movie..

seems kinda sad huh?

But, on the brighter side, it seems that lady luck has been smiling on me. I had never been more lucky when playing Mahjong or Poker before. Won $35 from Mahjong on the eve of the eve of CNY. Since then, I just played for fun, but I was still as lucky. I hope this lucky streak is not just for gambling, cause I would really need it in my daily life.

Just when I thought the hellish week is over, came the CFAS project.. Our group ran into a steel wall in our concept and idea.. So we decided to abandon the idea and come up with a new one. Couldn’t really come up with any ideas; I was never really a creative nor innovative person.. Thankfully, my group was able to come up with a new game concept. Although I didn’t really think it was good, but I didn’t say anything, as I myself couldn’t come up with anything at all.

Just about 2 week away from my final examinations, and I haven’t started on my revision. Well it’s no surprise for me, but I got to do well this semester so that my parents would not worry about my falling grades.. This would be the second last semester I will be having examinations before I go for my internship in around August..

gotta keep my cortisol level in check! all these unnecessary stress is making me weak and fat..

Projects after projects after projects.. What a really hectic month. I’ve got 3 more projects to submit this coming week.. Not considering the fact that the final examinations is only 2~3 weeks away. This is going to be one of the toughest month yet. It’s not helping that my concentration and productivity is at an all time low.. But I guess I should be thankful that I do not have to take BCOMM this semester or else I would probably lose my sanity.

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Too much in my head to write out a proper blog post. Shall make up for it during the long CNY holidays.

The first week of 2012 proved to be a real tough challenge. Feeling mentally and physically exhausted at the end of everyday sure isn’t making me look forward to the coming weeks..

Well, first week of school was pretty relaxed.. considering there were only 3 days of lessons. Got back my CT results and I guess it was average.. I didn’t do particularly bad in any modules.. But Credit Management was a let down. Out of all the modules, (except for ILP) CM is probably the module that I’m least interested in.. Maybe that explains my results..

Well I’m not really bothered by academic results, ‘cause it doesn’t really mean a thing to me. But my parents do.. They are the typical parents that always preach the whole “Study hard, get a degree, get a good job” thing. I don’t believe in that unfortunately, or should I say fortunately? I will never work for money, nor for others, but only for experience.

My parents have become slaves to money. No, I’m not saying that they are obsessed with money, but they have toiled their life working for money that they never really got to enjoy. Working past 2am everyday has become a norm to them. This is the sight that motivates me.. It motivates me because I do not want to be like them.. They have worked so hard their whole life, only to find out how much they’ve aged, and how much they’ve missed out on. My parents never traveled much, neither did I of course. I know that they are working hard to provide a good future for me, and I am truly grateful and thankful for. But it pains me to see that they have never enjoyed the fruits of their labor.

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I can foresee that this month is going to be a really hectic one.. Project deadlines drawing closer, examinations nearing.. It doesn’t help that I’m lacking vitality these days..  Got to buck up and make this month a wonderful one!

side note: I do realize that my post are pretty messy..

oh how 2011 flew by in a blink of an eye..

It has been an exciting year filled with many events that brought different perspectives and people into my life. Looking back at the past year, there are many things that I’ve regretted doing, or rather, not doing. I guess inaction has been my main impediment for any goals that I set for myself; this is something that I have to work on in this new year.

While reflecting on the past year is good, I see way too many people hopelessly dwelling, complaining about how bad their year have been, things that they wished they did and the list goes on..

“The past is behind, learn from it.
The future is ahead, prepare for it.
The present is here, live it.” - Thomas S. Monson

I love this quote as it’s pretty self explanatory.. Simple yet meaningful.

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Well this few days has been pretty hectic with many projects and assignments to complete. I have this habit of doing things the last minute.. I wouldn’t say its entirely bad, cause I believe in the Parkinson’s Law; “Work expands so as to fill the time available for its completion.” In simpler terms; If you give yourself a longer time for yourself to complete a task, then the task somehow becomes more complex and daunting as you try to fill up the time given.

However, I sometimes find myself using this as an excuse to delay starting my tasks..  D: Speaking of which, I’ve got to start on my tutorials and assignments which I had the whole holiday to complete.. Ta ta!